What?

Ano bang ginagawa ko dito sa Cebu?
Dapat ba talagang andito ako? Bakit nga?
Kung nasa Manila lang ba ko, makikilala ko ba sia?
Ano naman ang buhay sa Manila kung sakasakali?

F*ck. Ang daming tanong!!! Wala bang makakasagot nito??

Rag Doll

How ya feelin?
The day has had its way with both of us
And no, Ive gone out of my way
But I'm not free
From this pain Im reelin
I was a fool to think some day you would come around
But no no no I'm not thinking that way
Cause now I see

You are not what you seem
You are a mystery to me
Sometimes I just wana scream

I think you should just go away cause
Theres no neccesity for you to stay and
Next time you come around my way
Forget it baby youre not comin in

Hows your day been?
Cause mine has taken strange and ugly turns
But no no no I feel better today
Cause Im off my knees

You are not what you seem
You are a mystery to me
Sometimes I just wana scream

I think you should just go away cause
Theres no neccesity for you to stay and
Next time you come around my way
Forget it baby youre not comin in

A heart made for a lot of sorrow
No you cant come back tomorrow
Shut my windows, lock my doors
Cause my heart won't be your rag doll anymore.....

I think you should just go away cause
Theres no neccesity for you to stay and
Next time you come around my way
Forget it baby youre not comin in

A heart made for a lot of sorrow
No you cant come back tomorrow
Shut my windows, lock my doors
Cause my heart won't be your rag doll anymore.....
Cause my heart wont be your Rag Doll anymore!

Inuumpisahan ko na yung blog, di ko pa alam ang title. nahihirapan din akong magtype sa bagong laptop, sanay ako sa normal na keyboard. naiiyak ako ngayon, di ko alam sa kung anong dahilan. March 16, isang buwan na simula ng bumalik sia sa bansa nila. 3 araw bago isang buong 3 bwan na akong nandito sa cebu. 3 buwan....parang 3 taon.

Masyadong maraming nangyari. yung theme song ng buhay ko ngayon, parang Over You na ni Chris Daughtry, pero ilang araw lang ang nakakaraan, Realize pa lang to ni Colby Caillat. Lips of an Angel kaya ang kanta nya ngayon?

Sa loob din ng 3 araw, napuno ko na ng gamit ang apartment ko. TV, DVD Player, speakers....dumating na rin ang box ko galing ng maynila para makumpleto na ang mumunting abubot ng buhay ko para dito sa cebu.

Nung wala ang lahat ng ito, lahat ng mga gamit na to, merong isang bagay na kumumpleto ng buhay ko. Nabuhay ka na ba na 2 pants, 5 blouse, 5 panty, 2 bra at isang swimsuit lang ang meron ka sa loob ng 3 linggo? Nung mga panahon na yon, sapat na yon, kasi may isang bagay na kumukumpleto sayo. Hindi mo akalain na pagkatapos ng ilang araw ay kailangan mong gumastos ng mahigit sampung libo para mapalitan ang nagiisang bagay na nawala.

Nawala.....bakit "nawala"? Iyo nga ba in the first place? Sabi nya oo, pero matapos ang 2 linggo, hindi daw pala. Ang labo! Gusto mo mapamura, sarap hamunin ng suntukan!

Wala pakong 3 buwan sa Cebu. Parang 3 taon na ko nakatigil dito. Pagod na pagod ako. Ayoko na agad. Ibang iba sa mga plano ko ang kinalabasan ang istorya ko sa Cebu. Trabaho at bagong lugar lang ang habol ko...wala akong hiniling o binalak na may magbabago pa sa estado ng buhay ko. 29 years old, pag wala pang asawa, anak na lang. May kausap na nga ako. Di ko na kailangan ang asawa, sakit lang sa ulo. Anak ko na lang, maganda kasi pipiliin ko ang magiging tatay.

Masaya naman ako e, bakit kailangan pang magulo kasi lang may isang bagay kang nakuha para sang saglit.

just tired

what the fu*k!!!!
here we go again.
im soooooo tired of this sh*t.
i wanna rest, i dont wanna be bothered anymore with that pathetic thing.
i wanna be left alone....why cant you just leave me alone.
you're messing everything up
you messed everything up.

im so tired.
i just wanna rest.

i wanna be alone.
leave me alone.

dont ever come back.

I Won't Cry

Oh what can I say...

You came and got things today,I packed your car, I watched you drive away.I cried so many tears that day,It burnt my face, it felt like acid rain.I know I can't keep lying to myself,I said I'd be content with someone else,I know I never have to face the pain, baby baby,

I won't cry no more, I won't drown in my tearsI won't die no more, I've got over my fearsAnd I'm moving on, girl I know what to do.Cause I'm beter off wihtout you, and we both know that it's true.

Well,It's going to take a little, to stick in my mind,the fact you're gone for good.Cause when you said you're leaving me, I heard it before,I never really you would.Maybe I should glad that you gone away.I know the pain would not be here to stayIf I could only fool myself maybe, baby,

I won't cry no more, I won't drown in my tearsI won't die no more, I've got over my fearsAnd I'm moving on, girl I know what to do.Cause I'm beter off wihtout you, and we both know that it's true.

That I won't cry, I'm moving on.Well, well.I know it's hurt enough, to fall in and out of love,But when something is gone, to keep holding on,Will only break your heart.So I won't play the fool, by begging you to stay.I wanna keep it inside, til you're out of sight,Maybe then wait,

I won't cry no more, I won't drown in my tearsI won't die no more, I've got over my fearsAnd I'm moving on, girl I know what to do.Cause I'm beter off wihtout you, and we both know that it's true.

I won't cry no more, I won't drown in my tearsI won't die no more, I've got over my fearsAnd I'm moving on, girl I know what to do.Cause I'm beter off wihtout you, and we both know that it's true.

Realize

[V1:] Take time to realize,
That your warmth is. Crashing down on in.
Take time to realize,
That I am on your side
Didn't I, Didn't I tell you.
But I can't spell it out for you,
No it's never gonna be that simple
No I cant spell it out for you

[C:] If you just realize what I just realized,
Then we'd be perfect for each other
And will never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

[V2:] Take time to realize
Oh-oh I'm on your side
Didn't I, didn't I tell you.
Take time to realize
This all can pass you by.. Didn't I tell you
But I can't spell it out for you,
No its never gonna be that simple
No I can't spell it out for you.

[C:] If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder if
We missed out on each other now.

[V3:] It's not always the same
No it's never the same
If you don't feel it to.
If you meet me half way
If you would meet me half way.
It could be the same for you.

[C:] If you just realized what I just realized
Then we'd be perfect for each other
Then we'd never find another
Just realized what I just realized
We'd never have to wonder
Just realized what I just realized

OoOoOOo

Missed out on each other now
Missed out on each other now